Dear Diary,

I'VE MADE EVERY SECOND COUNT WHEN I WAS WITH YOU

Give it a thought. How do you see your life as? Perhaps to you, life is like a vacuum cleaner. Or maybe, you see your life as a cup of coffee, or even a box of chocolates.

To me, life is like an ocean. It can be calm and still, or rough and stormy.

When I was in Primary School, life was going by so smoothly. I, Pat Yuan Teng, was known as every “teacher’s pet”. I was the class secretary, a PE monitress, a school prefect, a CCA leader, etc. I was well-liked by my peers. People in school knew me – my face, my name, although I may not know who they are. I always had friends by my side – countless of them. Life was going by so easily. It was rare for me to be going through any hardship since everything was so positive. The ocean in my life was calm and still.

As I moved on to Secondary School, I thought life would be as smooth sailing as how it was in Primary School. I genuinely believed that, but I was wrong. Initially, during the first few months, school was alright. Words such as ‘Reliable’, ‘responsible’, ‘sweet’ were continuously used to describe me. However, those compliments didn’t last for long. Things started changing and slowly, it felt like I fell into a nightmare I couldn’t wake up to.

The ocean in my life started becoming rough and stormy. As days passed by, rumors about me started spreading around school. “Yuan Teng, always flirting with guys.” “Yuan Teng, can’t even help me with my assignment well.” “Yuan Teng, EEEEE.” Deep inside, I was flaring. Me, flirting? Me, being nice enough to volunteer to help you with your work, yet getting the blame for not doing it to your expectation when I’ve already done my best? You guys, talking about me when you don’t even know me, and when I don’t even know who you are? It was simply ridiculous!

So yes, life is like an ocean. But in the end, it’s always beautiful.

No words can describe how beautiful my days back in Primary School were. Then again, no words can describe how “ARGH” my Secondary School days were. Just a few years’ difference marked two peaks in my life – the positive and negative peaks.

But I must admit that these experiences have taught me important lessons in life which cannot be learnt just by knowing it. I’ve learnt how people can actually behave, and how influential they can be. I’ve learnt how to be nice, and how to be fair. I’ve learnt how to not judge a book by its cover and to look things beyond the surface. All these can only be learnt through experiences and the hardships I went through in Secondary School birthed into lessons about life for me.

Alas, I'm glad the storm is over. I'm happy for the person I am today. In a way, everything was a blessing in disguise – a tough, long, and draggy one that taught me what cannot be taught through mere education and changed me for the better.

Life is like a party. You invite a lot of people; some go, some join you, some laugh with you, some people just stand you up. But in the end, after the fun, there would be a few who would clean up the mess with you and continue walking with you. And more often than not, these people are the uninvited ones.

There were so many people I have met in life. Some who were hypocrites – speaking sugar-coated words in front of me but verbally stabbed me so hard in the back. Some who chose to stick with me, despite knowing that they may be dragged into the mess I am in. And some who were in the same boat as me. In life, you really don’t know who will be the ones to stick by you through thick and thin. The one you thought will be your “lifetime friend” may just be the first to leave you in the lurch.

Life is like walking through snow, every step shows. For all the things I’ve went through, it cannot be erased. Every single experience is like a footstep in my journey.

However, life is also akin to a novel. You are the author of your own story and every day is a new page. With every lesson learnt, I’ll be wiser, and know what to do when it comes to flipping to a new page and writing down a new chapter in the story.

But remember, life is fair. No one person will walk the easy lane in their life forever. You may be struggling now, but it will get better. I do not know when exactly or how, but it definitely will improve. I believe that there is a balance of good and bad in our lives. Life may not go according to what you want it to be, but it will all turn out fine in the end. Many times in life, you just have to let nature take its course and see what happens next. You never know, a pleasant surprise might await you in the future.

So now I ask again, do you see life like a vacuum cleaner, because it sucks? Or do you see it as a cup of coffee, where it can be bitter, but also sweet. Or would you see life as a box of chocolates, where you never know what you are going to get?

Nobody said life was going to be an easy ride, but it will definitely be worth it.

zeroSEVENzeroTHREE
I am a small girl. Pysically and with age.
I have issues with controlling my laughter.

First impressions do not count.

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